When we went to the outside area so Shaun could fetch the dirt, I stood next to the cart with my finger in my baby's mouth and looked into the store. I was kind of shocked to realize I was not happy to be there. I mean, a trip to Home Depot used to be like going to an ice cream shop for me, full of possibilities and exciting. Yep, I get excited for ice cream. But today, my wet finger and I were sad. Sad and defeated because I didn't want to be there, I didn't want to use the materials we were buying, and I would probably never do any significant house projects again (except when Meryl and Chris come, of course!). I said out loud to myself 'I don't want to work on the house anymore.' This was the look I got:
(Dramatization - these pics were taken in the car when we hightailed it home)
I don't know why I'm surprised. I knew after we had a baby that my drive to renovate and decorate would die down, or simply die. I knew my blog would go downhill, as far as "DIY or Die Trying" was concerned. I know there is a very strict rule that you are not to 'turn into a mommy blog' but I'm not really seeing any way around this. If I just blogged about our house, I would not be posting...you know, like the last two weeks! I'm not really interested in discontinuing the blog as I've quite enjoyed writing it and sharing my life. People's lives change, and mine certainly has.
(Yep, still crying)
To summarize, the realization that I might never be a 'daily read' for some people again inspired my little pity party in the Home Depot garden center. I'm not sure how often I will post, or what it will be about. I like to think that since my blog is purely for fun and not monetized, I get some leeway to post about whatever seems interesting. It makes me happy that when you come here, there won't be talking ads (ps - I hate those. I may close a blog if they start up) or any ads, for that matter. I have done a couple sponsored posts, but I get lots of offers and refuse almost all of them. I just want my site to be about me, my family, my house, my life, whatever is going on. Except recipes, please don't ever expect those!
Thanks for reading, and if there is a question you would like me to answer or topic you'd like me to write about, please let me know. Lord knows I need the suggestions.